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MAHA MAGAM 2016 – Part I

MAHA MAGAM

The ‘ Mamangam ‘ (Mahamagam) is always very interesting when it happens every 12 years.

I was lucky to have had my first 2 mamagam’s at our village Baburajapuram right at the entrance of Kumbakonam. Just a few meters away from our village is where the private transport was terminated in 1968 and in 1980 and one has to walk around 3 kms to reach the ‘mamanga’ kulam to take the bath.

In 1968 my ‘Thatha’ (Grand father) the illustrious Shriman. Subbaraya Iyer was alive and the whole family (my aunts and their families, the illustrious son Shriman. Pattabiraman Iyer (my father) and his family (total including the new born baby and the last child of my parents) my chithappa (Atchay Rajni‘s grand father) and the entire village celebrated the mamangam with happiness and pride. This is a life time event for everyone in the Tanjore and Kumbakonam districts. This unity cannot come again.

Anyone can come and stay in anyone’s house and enjoy their hospitality is the custom. So, our house was surrounded with around 80-100 in numbers and the kitchen was working almost 24×7. You can have coffee at as early as 04.00hrs. The whole family was commended by our Grand Father.

At the wink of an eye of my Grand father, kudiyanavan’s (people who work for our lands) will instantaneously execute his commands to fineness.

My father will not stand in front of my Grandfather but I was always sitting on the lap of my Grandfather. You can imagine how odd this would have been but that was the way the families were run. My aunt’s daughters and sons will promptly obey the command of my father (their uncle and mami) and they love him and my mother so much.

It used to be a real feast for every meal and all laced with varieties and one has to sit in ‘Pandhi’ to eat every meal. I was there for almost 2 weeks well ahead of the beginning of the festival and returned in Ambassador car at the end of the whole event.

2016 will be even better

I have come a long way in the last two years. I have built my own self esteem up to the point that I finally am in love with myself. A year ago when I finally came to terms with who I was, I asked the universe to send me men who were crazy for me and loved the way I was! And like magic it happened! I was meeting man after man who were totally crazy for me the way I was. But none of them were wanting relationships so I changed my thoughts and asked the universe to send me the man who is everything I wanted in a man who also would love me. Two weeks later I met Malcom. I fell in love with him. He wasn’t perfect I’m not sure if anyone is perfect, but again something was missing. I wasn’t feeling loved, appreciated, or even accepted. We fought over this a few times as couples fight and make up. But tonight I realized I wasn’t happy, I am worth much more. I deserve someone who thinks the world of me, loves me unconditionally and is supportive in EVERYTHING I do and adores me for EVERYTHING I am. Yes I am selfish in this because in this part of my life I should be. NOBODY can ever rip up the foundation I built within myself. I know I am perfect just the way I am. My flaws make me strong, my imperfections give me character. I am the most loving most patient most caring person and I deserve to be treated as such. So Malcom and I broke it off in our latest argument. I will spend the holidays with loving family and move forward. The universe is going to bring me everything I desire and I will meet my future love of my life very soon I can feel it. 😃😃😃😃 life is amazing and I am grateful for many things. I do not let the hurt and pain fester but I make room for beautiful people and wonderful opportunities. 2015 has been amazing and I know 2016 will be even better.

Please do not reply with sorrow or sadness if you wish to comment please send happiness and joy as those are what I need and want. And I wish everyone in my life to be filled with the happiness and joy they deserve as well.